Thank Q Jesus

i feel so guilty loh! coz i am lazy to study my web programming.. i really hate this subject. i totally ignore it when i go to the class.. i dunno how to apply it. i hate web programming too. tomorrow is web programming paper. but i totally don't have knowledge of it. How can i do? My laziness when i see the programming slide.. i really faint when see it. yesterday e-commerce exam also nearly kill me. i totally blank in my brain. i can't answer.. but i cannot 对不起我自己，then i cincai write what i can write. coz i really take my heart to study e-commerce.. nevermind lah, at least i keep it up already. but return to the web programming.. i really dunno how to face it. this is my first time feel that the subject is the most hardest.. haizz.. suan le..i just use today. wednesday to study it. i dont care anymore, 读多少就读多少了。不会就这样了， hope dun wan retake it. coz i really hate web programming . i dun wan retake it ar.

My room is so untidy now.. wakakaka.. coz my roomates go home. really 没眼看 我的房间乱到像垃圾场。just left few days then i wanna go back liao.. yeah. 4 month.. so fast fast study lah.. i hope i dont be lazy anymore.. coz i still have 2 subject left.

i am really a blur blur person!! i though my lecturer - Laura dun give mark to my character design . at the last i realize that i send wrong file to her!! i send toom boom file to her!! No wonder she say tat is not 3D file!! where is ur img?? i give mark depend on that!! wah!! how blur am i?? i send wrong qu!!! what lah!! but lucky she say can give me one chance.. she say she will give me the mark if i willing to design a one.. i quickly send the correct file to her. Thank Lord for helping me let Laura give me the mark of that. if not , my animation really dunno how to say liao .. really can die one.. coz my carry mark really so low. until E . so luckily lah.. yesterday i totally dun have heart when i know it.. but .. the most important one..Give Thank To The Lord.. Helping me and so on.. haiiz.....

Ok!! Today i need to fight！ No matter how i hate programming but still need to study it. if you wanna retake jiu play ba!! ><

so happy happy

wow.. 今天开心到~~刚才去海边玩耍！好爽啊。！因为流汗，。。哈哈哈！我的衣服还没有晒得。明天在晒！今天我的网友bear同学say hihi to me!! then i very happy!! haha.. then she is at my idol's house!! velablue!! i am so exciting!!! tonite really so happy ar.. although i havent touch my study. but nevermind.. coz i really so happy today!!

哈哈哈！！ just now.. i webcam with my netfriend. bear.. then she say she at velablue's house.. she ask me wanna see velablue's house?? i am very exciting and say yes i do!!! then she open the webcam .. then .. i very shy and nervous when i saw velablue come across the webcam!! wah... is she! i really so nervous and very exciting!!! is my idol ar.. i dunno i wan to reply how many time.. but really to exciting of this..

i wanna sleep liao!! tomolo monday!!! sure wanna study liao!! if not really will failed!! i dun wan retake!!! thank q bear netfriend let me c dao velablue.. so happy ar.. so so so happy ar.. this is my first time saw her through webcam.. i so shy so shy. she dun believe i am 22 and say i look like a kid?? hahaha.. so funny!! i just smaller than her one year nia.. i dunno weather i write the blog she will read or not!！

i am very satisfy already! haha.. today is a nice day!! dun forget to thank Lord!! thank q Jesus thank q God thank q thank q!!

星期3 凌晨

坐在电脑前面，客厅。。一个人。。吹着风！很想睡觉了！但是睡觉之前突然很想写blog!!! 如今已经星期3了 。真的一点紧张都没有。星期五考试超级超级难。两科。英文和advance multimedia .我看了看了slide 竟然都看不懂。只能怪我平常没有专心上课。重点在那里都不知道。其实老师很好的了，跟我们讲那里重点了，可是呢？我不珍惜！我今天一定要在1点之前睡觉！考试越来越接近。我根本没有心考嘛。。可以说是没有心读书！我的心在哪里呢？haizz.不可以在这样下去了！书还是要读的啊。不读怎么考呢？怎么毕业呢？？可是我就是没有定力！每次读书都不到10分钟。最多10分钟已经是很厉害了！怎么我的集中力这么差呢？明天开始我要努力的读书了！拼到最后！应该还来得及吧？只要我的集中力不要这么差就可以了！祷告啊！！求天父你能与我同在啊。帮助我给我聪明智慧去读书吧。还有让我专心读书来荣耀你啊。不要再么懒散下去了。真的丢了天父你的脸 ！惭愧啊。

我的梦想。。从小就跟明星梦有关。哈哈。小时候想要当明星，后来想要当歌星，后来想要当音乐家等。。在教会服事赞美的时候就想当福音歌手。现在想当起福音乐手来了！哎哟！怎么我这样。我其实一直都在等待上帝给我的答案！我不知道他要我走什么路。我真的很迷茫。其实可能我心里面知道了，只是我不敢承认，不敢去面对。短宣里面的朋友，有几个竟然献身了。我真的有点吓到下的。

今天我问了我的朋友，是不是读音乐系就一定要当音乐干事啊？他说如果是年会津贴就一定要是。。但是我想当福音乐手也。要怎么才能呢？我现在根本就是跟着自己的计划走嘛。我没有让上帝在我的计划里面。（e -chee 神学生）提醒我的。可是我真的只喜欢音乐。我真的不敢向上帝做这么一个祷告！但是现在呢！我要勇敢去面对！

求你使用我！我要用我一生的才华来事奉你。在音乐上的道路，如果真的是这样。我愿意！把自己的一生的音乐道路都献给你！求你使用我。i love you Lord! 请在我生命中！掌管我的生命。求你给我答案吧。如果我真的在这么短的时间内，学到能够进音乐系的资格，。我就认了。我就去读音乐干事！！放弃当福音乐手的梦想！！

good friday

wah.. my finger so hurt... "zhong" qi lai le!! i dont want give it up to practice guitar!! argg.. i always 偷工减料 and short cut to learn and play guitar. that is no good!!! until now still cannot press a chord well!! yesterday 是最后的晚餐。我第一次帮人洗脚也，我也是第一次被人洗脚也。哈哈。学习服侍，谦卑。学习耶稣的样式。到今天了，我还没有读书！oh no!! so lazy ar!!! no mood no mood!! if my exam is music or guitar then i sure have motivation to learn it.. no matter how hard or how long time i spend for it! coz music is my life.. but i am not professional one.. wanna thank god for giving me talent to let me can direct learn from youtube or friend.. really thank so much.. but now., wanna back in real!! you are IT student!! you must study and concentrate what you face now!! now is study week and is exam period!!! how come i am so lazy??? really cant wait to go back jor!! coz i have planning in my holiday!! i wan learn piano and maya! but i hope i can learn maya very well .. i hope i can use my home pc.. coz my nephew ... always in my house.. and then i cant use pc.. if i use the dektop, they sure will fight each other and then my mum will ask me y u dun wan like tat like this.. this problem always appear in my house.. i really sometime beh tahan my nephew them ..ar.. so hurt my bone..

weird dream + my feeling~

how a weird dream last night again!! haha.. hui fong, a junior, she is guitarist.. lala is a drummer.. wah.. i was shocked when saw hui fong can play guitar so good.. she say she don't know how to play but she can play a nice melody.. i forgot the melody.. it really nice and comfortable when listen it! if i can remember the melody.. wah.. how nice..

this week is a study week.. but i still no study yet.. sedikit pun tak ada belajar.. saya tahu saya sangat malas!! really too busy .. i nid to push myself to study!! but.. otak saya tak mahu! saya suka guitar.. u know? few day ago i discovery a person in youtube!! he use 2.5 year to learn guitar by himself.. his guitar skill professional. i really so admire him!

wow!! i saw a person write the (XXX) thing, but i tak ada feeling at all.. haha.. i am very happy.. coz i know i tak feeling to him anymore.. wow!! i am so happy ar.. yesterday web programming..辛苦你们了！！ maya 一组的也辛苦你们了！还有toon boom 的也辛苦你们了！！

学到的心得~

对不起哈！我要写中文这次。因为很多心得用英文是表达不出来的！哈哈。很多天没有update 我的blog liao!!! 所以要从星期六那天说起！星期六那天！刘运恩传道来为我们讲解有关许多的赞美课程等！他说的没有错！玩音乐的人多多少少都有点优越心！但是说真的他唱歌真的太好听了！像歌星那么好听！弹吉他的方式等！wow!!这才是像样嘛！那个才是我想学的！（因为不是乱来的，有技巧的，不是会按chord 而已。而是真的会玩）哈哈。。真的让我更活力想要把我的音乐学好！为主工作！星期日那天！haizz，那天发生了很多事情！那天是我的生日！哈哈。lala 他们给我吃蛋糕庆祝！下午的时候，参加好那个音乐讲座好后，我准备好要去打羽毛球了！谁知道车全部跑掉了！那个说带我去打羽毛球的人又不在！我就有点害怕，害怕我回不到！冠希也回去了！原来我被放飞机了！根本没有人带我去打羽毛球，我自己一个人在教堂！那个时候我有点想哭了。可是我强颜不哭，问pei chong 可以带我去打羽毛球吗？结果他说等下带我去！那个时候我心里面很不开心很不爽！被放飞机很不爽，因为我是认真的不是嘴巴说要打羽毛球而已！我还带了我的羽毛球拍等！结果！那个时候的感觉真的很像（========）不知道怎么讲！但是还是有打到羽毛球啦。！过后耀强带我回家！

很开心的那天！小娟好好噢！煮一餐给我吃！让我吃了很饱！真的是太好吃了！哈哈。满足啊。！明天要presentation了。可是我不知道时间是几时，然后我的部分做好给honey 他们了，然后我还是不安心。很像什么东西要改那样。可是现在我的电话还是没有什么消息，意思就是说没有我的事情了？？奇怪的。。我可以安心睡觉了？哈哈。很多天都是3 4 点才睡觉啊。到了study week 我们还是很多功课！我真的很想快点好好装备我的音乐！感谢上帝给我开路让我接触这么多！很多时候。。控制不了的优越心。。。因为真的很难。我要学习！good luck!!

a weird dream

yesterday, i have a weird dream. The dream is reality. the dream is about my secondary life, but it is different a bit. i have dream that i was late to going to school. My watch time is 7.20am but it is 7.10am actually in my dream. i am very anxious. i quickly call my friend, but in my hp contact i cant find any friend. suddenly i found ah leh!! ah leh!! she is my good friend in form six. and willing to help people. i call her for asking teacher coming or not. she say no , faster come to the class. i said ok ok, but had to wait. i dont know y the feeling is so real. i really thought that i was in secondary but not in university. when i wake up, eh!! just a dream!!! the is pass over so fast! i already in university not secondary anymore.. So.. haha. every people is grow up. i need to face to my assignment. although i dont know how to do in maya, i will try my best too to do it.